"My heart is at ease knowing that what was meant for me will never miss me and that what misses me was never meant for me''

Umar ibn Al-Khattab

Wednesday, 23 January 2019

Everything's Messed Up but I Can Manage ๏_๏

Assalamualaikum and hye guys! Ohmygod I miss my blog a lot and I miss you guys too of course! ><

I am not sure what to write in this entry and currently I don't have any idea at all but I guess I'll just type what's inside my mind right now.

First of all, it has been a hectic month. All the hustle and bustle of my student's life here was tough for me and I almost fall, broken again believing that I might not be able to stand up again.

But out of the blue, my mother called me for like 8 times that particular day because she wanted to make sure that I am doing fine. And I just couldn't pick up the phone because I was too busy crying and whatnot.

Then I called my mother and texted my sister so that they know how I'm doing here, my studies and all. Then my mother told me that I should go back home for the weekend.

I felt really heavy at that time because I was thinking that I've got loads of work to do and if I went back home I knew I won't be able to do any work because the commitment and the responsibilities towards my parents and my siblings.

So then I cried again thinking that everything was over for me and I knew that I am actually started to lose interest in science so I am not sure whether to continue my study seriously or not.

What's next? I went back home and that felt extremely fantastic. To be surrounded by the people you love and the people who loved you just made me realised that I should be grateful for what I have and I learnt to accept my own weakness and also others so that I could peacefully enjoy my life. I'm so glad I went back home :))

There was so much thing to do and I shouldn't be pressured with just a single mistake whether it was from me or from other people. Accepting these mistakes made me a better person and has taught me a great lesson. I am so much thankful for everything that has happened to me for the whole 18 years and 7 months I've been alive.

And the last sentence I got from my mother was, " Don't think too much. Just do the best and enjoy the process <3,"