"My heart is at ease knowing that what was meant for me will never miss me and that what misses me was never meant for me''

Umar ibn Al-Khattab

Tuesday, 16 July 2019

There's no "village" in my village :(

Assalamualaikum and hi.
These days especially during holidays, my family and I would return back to the village to visit our grandparents but I'm just so sad to see it's condition now.

Back then, I used to ride a motorbike with my cousin and take a round around the village and sometimes we would ride the bike until the neighbourhood village. Along the narrow road to the next village we could see lots of cows and goats and we also sometimes bump into chameleon or other big-sized insects that were stuck on the branch of the trees.

And there was also lots of trees and they were so tall and big and really the houses around the village also were old and very classic just like the traditional old houses. However, I somehow feel disappointed with the changes that has happened in my village. The houses are all becoming much modern and they are putting lots of shiny stairs instead of having the old wooden stairs. There are also less cows and goats. I could not even see any monkeys walking along the street or hanging up on the trees.Some areas have also been cleared up for construction so there was less trees along the road.

Back then, it was so hard to look at the neighbours houses as the trees were too thick and if we wanted to walk there to buy some ice cubes or top up cards, we need to walk in a group because it was literally felt like we were walking in the woods. But now, we can already see the roof of the neighbours' houses and we can already see people go there without having to walk in a group anymore.

I honestly don't like the changes that are happening in my village. It's just so sad to see the village-y aura gone just like that. It really feels like a modern village now and believe me, nature was outnumbered this time :(

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Sunday, 14 July 2019

Driving License, Fate and I

Assalamualaikum and hi.

Finally, I'm going to get a driving license!!!

Okay actually, I badly don't want to take the license. And I don't know who to blame for this traumatic feeling when I imagined myself driving the car, I just don't know how to solve it.

Everything started when I knew that my sister was involved in accident and to make it worse, she was involved in two. Even though she was okay and not injured and there was no major injuries either from her side or others but the fact she was involved in accidents really got me up to my nerve. I was so scared and since then, I vowed to myself that I won't ever take that license and got crashed.

But here's the twist. I found a job and I wanted that job. So I told my mother about it.

But my mother told me that I should get a driving license first because nobody was available to send me either going to or pick me up. You see? I was stuck right in the middle. I talked this through with my sister and she gave me advice and she was good, she convinced me and talked a lot about her involvement in the accidents and therefore, I agreed to get a driving license.

Of course, I was really nervous and really my stomach twisted really hard at first but I insisted myself that I can do this and now, I'm okay and I admit that I feel scared but not as much as I had back then. Overall, I'm so thankful for this opportunity and really, I thanked my mommy a lot because if she didn't say that to me then I don't think I'll ever take the test for the license. Until then, byebye.