"My heart is at ease knowing that what was meant for me will never miss me and that what misses me was never meant for me''

Umar ibn Al-Khattab

Wednesday, 28 August 2019

The FIRST step I take to live a much better live

Assalamualaikum and hi :)

26th August 2019. This is the day that I'm taking a massive step in order to live a better life. But before I'm going further in this story of massive step that I've done, I'm going to tell you why am I doing this and what does it take to do this.

So, I bet you guys have an Instagram account and Facebook account, right? It's fine if you don't have them or either one, that's totally fine. As for me, I had have both of them. I started created my Facebook account in 2011 and I created my Instagram account in between 2013 and 2014. That Instagram account was my first account.

But then, I deleted my Instagram account in 2015. I think that I am not becoming much better and was easily distracted with what was in the virtual life rather than what was in the real life. In other words, I was distracted with the #travel #food #positivity #self-improvement posts and God knows how many hashtags I've been distracted to. There were so many hashtags that I've been paying less attention to what was going on around me.

And so I deleted that account and I admitted that there was a slight change in my life. Rather than reading the caption of #books posts, I'm actually reading a book. I'm flipping the page, taking notes on the vocabulary, marking my favourite lines and so much more. And that was only the book. But then it's fine because that was still a change, a positive change.

Though I deleted my Instagram account, I couldn't do the same with my Facebook account. I've been saving lots of things such as recipes, study tips, fashion tips, clothes, tech tips and so much more and honestly, I feel suffocated. I feel suffocated as I was thinking does it matter with the posts that I'm saving right now and am I going to use them? If yes, when? If no, why? I know, it sounded as if I'm the one who purposely suffocating myself  by thinking all the questions that were unanswerable(I'm not sure if this word exist) but by thinking about these questions have helped me to be aware of what really matters in my life.

Then now, what happened with my Facebook account? I deleted that one. I deleted that and my second Instagram account. Yup, I was distracted from my motivation and I created a second Instagram account in 2018 around November if I'm not mistaken. That, was the dumbest move I've done in my life. Now, I'm not saying anyone with an Instagram account are dumb. I'm focusing with my life right now and sure, if you've had enough with this post, you might wanna click the close tab button.

And back to my life, I personally believe that that was the dumbest step I've taken ever in my life. And on 26th of August 2019, I deleted that account and I'm so so so relieved that I've deleted that account. During those periods where my Instagram account was still exist, I'm so ashamed with myself. This is so embarrassing to me and it doesn't make me a better person. It just making me turn my attention to the least important thing in my life and I'm so not happy with that.

I've got my family members, books with different heights, styles, genres and colours, a wardrobe full of clothes that I need to move some of them to my younger sister's wardrobe, raw ingredients and recipe books even from 2010, block toys, bags of different types and sports stuffs.

Those are the things that I should have given my attention to and not the things that aren't even in my possession. And it feels really great to realize this and well, things are going much better. I've got my siblings to play with, I can ask them for their opinion about my fashion style, I can exchange dresses or blouses with my younger sister, I can make a simple recipe based on the recipe books that I can manage to understand, I can play badminton with my brother and competing the skipping sport with him and I've got the other brother whose willing to hear me rant on about my life while he's playing the DOTA game(he told me he was multitasking).

All and all, I'm so grateful for this feeling of realization that God has given me, and I'm so thankful as there is and will always be a space for me whenever I'm taking the wrong path or when I'm hitting the rock bottom. These things are the things I should have been paying more attention to and all of this is based on my only opinion and only focusing on my life. I'm not sure how you guys manage your life but in this post, I'm focusing on me and I just wanted to spill this feeling in my heart so thanks for reading this post and now I'm targeting for a month of living without those two social media accounts.

Adios, we'll meet again on 26th September 2019 and I'll be sharing the second step I take to live a much better life <3

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4 comments:

  1. I am so happy that you get to do what's best for you. We're all struggling in our own ways to find what's best for ourselves. It won't be easy but help will come along the way. All da best for you.

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    1. Yes, that is so true and thank you so much for the wish. I'm wishing the best for you too! ^_^

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  2. Just do you girl, no need to keep up with mainstream culture hehe. I'm trying my best too!

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    1. Awwh thanks a lot for the advice. Much appreciated :*

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